Humility

So today is one of those days when I wish I had it all together.  I wish I had not snoozed for 30 min and got in the Word first thing in the morning.  I wish I had not forgotten about my doctor appointment in Duluth and had to cancel on Lauren for lunch.  I wish I had not forgotten to put the recycling bin out.  That means it will be overflowing for the next week!  I wish I had not forgotten my wallet and had to ask the doctor office to kindly let me pay them for their service later AND let me borrow $25 for gas so I could make it out of the parking lot and back to Athens.  Yes, some of that is lack of planning but some of that is just me.  And as I drove back I realized, that it's okay.  I can't spend my whole life trying to have it together.  That is not what it is about.  The Lord calls us to be humble in spirit and to Love the Lord our God and to put others before ourselves.  If that means forgetting my wallet here and there then I'm okay with that.  Lord grow me in wisdom and in love.  I want you to be interwoven in my life.  I want you to overflow from my every action, thought, & word.  I do not want to ooze out selfishness & self righteousness.  Help me to grow in Humility Lord and please use my cracks to grow beautiful gardens.  I am learning to embrace my cracks and see how you can use them for beauty.  I love you Lord.